• A test of will or won’t, or maybe it’s just a testomony

    Posted on February 20, 2017 by in Uncategorized

    I’m in my 2nd week of the diet.  The journey has been predictable in that the usual temptations rose up in my head.  I was thinking about will power, discipline and stick-to-it-ness.  And I marvel at how easy it all is to head in one or another direction mentally.  At one of my coaching sessions, I was asked to describe a typical day.  I found I had no trouble when it came to describing my work day.  Easy enough… Get up, be thinking about work, how far behind I am, etc… And I find that the work week goes easily.  No real tests to challenge me during the work week… It’s too tiring and goes very quickly.

    However, describing the weekends was a different story.  I suddenly had this expanse of time stretched out before me.  48 hours of time … That needs filling without meal planning.  At first, it was CRIMINIY, but that’s an awful lot of time with me and my headspace churning away.  And then I realized that maybe I don’t have enough to do.  Perish the thought, right?  But really… It made me re-evaluate what I am doing with myself on the weekend.  I’m spending a lot of time thinking about what I should not do… Trying not to be tempted, but damned if I do or don’t… The most amazing memories just surface from no-where.  It’s got to be all this time thinking and examining things.

    It reminded me of a quote from Rumpole…. Hilda was asking, or making a passing comment to Rumpole about “looking at oneself”… To which Rumpole replied… “Do you think that’s altogether wise?”.

    To quote again… I chortled at that and then started to think… I think I think too much.  And the sarcastic me droley remarks… Of course you do, you’re writing a blog… Jotting down all those thoughts – even worse!

    But I have to jot these thoughts down.  I think getting them out and into the Ethernet Aether of the World Wide Web is soothing somehow.  

    Had a good Presidents’ Day today.  Wanted to mention that out loud.  Should be a quick week.  Got lots of plans to be active, dedicated to my meal replacements and hopefully my mind will ease up a bit and wander in directions that are a bit more restful and relaxing.  Sort of like a lazy river, floating away.  Mmmm, I think I’ll hold onto that particular thought and head to bed.  Nighty nite all!

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