I’m in my 2nd week of the diet. The journey has been predictable in that the usual temptations rose up in my head. I was thinking about will power, discipline and stick-to-it-ness. And I marvel at how easy it all is to head in one or another direction mentally. At one of my coaching sessions, I was asked to describe a typical day. I found I had no trouble when it came to describing my work day. Easy enough… Get up, be thinking about work, how far behind I am, etc… And I find that the work week goes easily. No real tests to challenge me during the work week… It’s too tiring and goes very quickly.
However, describing the weekends was a different story. I suddenly had this expanse of time stretched out before me. 48 hours of time … That needs filling without meal planning. At first, it was CRIMINIY, but that’s an awful lot of time with me and my headspace churning away. And then I realized that maybe I don’t have enough to do. Perish the thought, right? But really… It made me re-evaluate what I am doing with myself on the weekend. I’m spending a lot of time thinking about what I should not do… Trying not to be tempted, but damned if I do or don’t… The most amazing memories just surface from no-where. It’s got to be all this time thinking and examining things.
It reminded me of a quote from Rumpole…. Hilda was asking, or making a passing comment to Rumpole about “looking at oneself”… To which Rumpole replied… “Do you think that’s altogether wise?”.
To quote again… I chortled at that and then started to think… I think I think too much. And the sarcastic me droley remarks… Of course you do, you’re writing a blog… Jotting down all those thoughts – even worse!
But I have to jot these thoughts down. I think getting them out and into the Ethernet Aether of the World Wide Web is soothing somehow.
Had a good Presidents’ Day today. Wanted to mention that out loud. Should be a quick week. Got lots of plans to be active, dedicated to my meal replacements and hopefully my mind will ease up a bit and wander in directions that are a bit more restful and relaxing. Sort of like a lazy river, floating away. Mmmm, I think I’ll hold onto that particular thought and head to bed. Nighty nite all!